Dreams

Dreams..what can say...? I wish I had a door that I could enter to another dimension..the dimension would be my world..my dream world.
Lately my dreams have been haunting me...cruel, depressing memories of the past. It's been torture. But last night the stars were brighter..and so were my dreams.
My dream: Running around the streets of North HollyWood, hand in hand with someone..new, I was happy in this dream..
Let's all just runaway to a hill top far, far away..lay down holding hands, staring up at the stars..pointing up wondering what other worlds might be out there...then fall asleep in eachother's arm...and dream a simple dream..
"The secrets of the universe are imprinted on the cells of your body."

Truth

The truth is a funny thing...the world is just filled with lies..the fact that anyone speaks the truth ever is astonishing. I've told many lies in my life and I have to say....I regret every word that came out of my mouth. It's ruined me...
The truth about me is that I'm weak...I try so hard to be strong..to hide how hurt I am...but all I am is weak....
I don't know what I'm doing half the time...I'm stupid..I've made awful mistakes...and lost people that I love.
I'm a manipulative, controlling, depressed, angry,weak person..and that's the truth. But every single day I hide my feelings from everyone around me and act strong and try..so hard to be happy...One day I wish that I will just EXPLODE (in a good way) and I will just come pouring out with all my feelings and memories that are bottled up inside. Maybe then I could feel better...happier. Smile. Love....

"Talk is cheap and lies are expensive your wallet's fat and so is your head."-GreenDay

Change

Change..it happens so fast...in the blink of an eye your whole world can change. Where I'm at now I my life is just so unbelievable..I don't understand it. Things used to be so much better..so much easier..now just nothings right. Everything and everyone is changing for the worse....and people are just disappearing from my life. I know the quotes "People come and go." and "Everything happens for a reason." and I basically live off of those 2 quotes..but I still haven't figured out the reason all these things happen..or why all these people come and go. Maybe I'd feel better if I knew..you know...some sort of closure or something..or just some understanding.
As I face life everyday I have so many thoughts racing through my head..so many questions..no answers though. I don't think anyone has the answers to the questions I have to ask.....or at least the truth.